I was at a cocktail party last night with loud music and lots of people who I didn't know.
I was looking at all those people talking and laughing with each other and I thought to myself, "Do I even know how to have fun anymore?"
Before, when I was younger, if I was at a party where I didn't know anyone, I would just have some drinks to loosen up and help me be more social. Yes, maybe I would then drink to 4am.
But now if I have more than 1.5 drinks per night I have a terrible hangover the next day.
So what am I supposed to do?
It was so loud that I had to yell to talk to anyone. And I couldn't hear what anyone was saying. And there wasn't much food.
"Ugh," I thought. "Why can't I be more outgoing and friendly? Why am I standing here in the corner looking at my phone?"
My wife was working the room, introducing herself, laughing, chatting, being a normal social person.
Go, little rockstar.
I just need one more sparkling water and then I'll be ready, right?