Am I Allowed to Have Fun?

We have a ski trip planned in the next few days.

Do I remember how to ski? Will I fall down?Is skiing something that comes back to you?

We are going up to the Pyrenees, about two hours away.

Taking a ski trip mid-week feels indulgent. Am I allowed to have fun? It feels like I'm not allowed to have fun.

I tell myself, Joey, it's ok to have fun. It's not wrong to have fun. You can have fun.

Really? I say. Really? I don't have to be grumpy all the time?

No, you don't.

Hmmm. Will there be a hot tub?

Yes, there will.

Ok, I'll let myself have fun.